I know how you feel with thoughts of death by suicide because I have spent many thoughts on it as well. I survived my attempt, and I want to help you.
It can feel like the darkness will never lift, like you’re caught in a storm with no shelter in sight. The weight of worthlessness is overwhelming, and the idea of escaping it can seem like the only relief. But let me tell you something important: that feeling of worthlessness is a lie. A powerful, convincing lie, but a lie nonetheless. You are not worthless. In fact, you are irreplaceable, and your life has more value than you may be able to see right now.
Psalm 139:14 says, “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” This verse is a reminder that you are created with purpose and intention. There is a divine reason for your existence, and it is not to suffer in silence or to believe that you are unworthy of love or life.
When we feel worthless, it’s easy to get lost in those thoughts, letting them consume us until they feel like the truth. But the truth is that you have intrinsic value. Your worth is not determined by what you’ve done or failed to do, what others think of you, or even how you feel about yourself in this moment. Your worth is inherent, given to you by your Creator, who sees you as precious and beloved.
I know it’s hard to believe that when the thoughts in your mind are telling you otherwise. But take a moment to breathe and consider this: the very fact that you are here, alive, and reading this, means that there is hope. You are here for a reason, and your life has a unique purpose that no one else can fulfill.
You might be thinking, “But I don’t feel valuable. I don’t see my purpose. I don’t believe that anyone would even notice if I were gone.” Those feelings are valid—they are real and they hurt deeply. But they are not the whole story. Feelings can be powerful, but they are not always true. The truth is that you are valuable simply because you exist. You are a one-of-a-kind creation, and the world needs you, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
It’s okay to acknowledge the pain, to admit that you are struggling. It’s okay to reach out for help. In fact, it is one of the bravest things you can do. I know that talking about these feelings can be incredibly difficult, especially when it feels like no one will understand or when you’re afraid of being judged. But I urge you to take one small step today: speak to someone you trust about what you’re going through.
This is not about burdening anyone with your problems—it’s about allowing someone who cares about you to be there for you. Be wise in your choosing! Choose someone who will truly listen, who will not judge you, but will support you with compassion and understanding. It could be a counselor, a trusted family member, or a close friend who has proven to be reliable and empathetic. Not everyone can be a support in times like these, so choose wisely. This step isn’t about solving everything all at once; it’s about beginning the process of letting someone into your world, so you don’t have to carry this alone.
The decision to reach out can feel daunting, but it is a crucial step in recognizing your worth. When you allow someone else to be there for you, you are affirming that your life is valuable enough to be cared for. You deserve to be heard, to be seen, and to be helped through this pain.
Remember, you are not alone in this struggle. Many people have walked this path before you, and many are walking it now. The fact that you are still here, still fighting, is a testament to your strength, even if it doesn’t feel that way. You have survived everything up to this point, and that is no small feat. It means that somewhere within you is a resilience that refuses to give up, even when the world seems to be closing in.
I want you to know that there is hope beyond the darkness. There is life beyond the pain. There are people who love you, who would miss you more than words can express. There is a future for you that is brighter than you can imagine right now. It may not feel possible today, but healing is real, and it is within your reach.
Please take this one step today: talk to someone. Let them know what you’re feeling, even if it’s just a small piece of the overwhelming thoughts you’re experiencing. You don’t have to have all the answers, and you don’t have to explain everything perfectly. Just start with what you can manage, and let the conversation unfold from there.
By taking this step, you’re opening the door to healing, even if it’s just a crack. You’re giving yourself a chance to see that there is more to life than the pain you’re currently feeling. You’re allowing someone else to walk with you, to help you carry the burden that feels too heavy to bear alone.
Your life is worth living. You are irreplaceable, and the world is better with you in it. The challenges you’re facing are not the end of your story. There is more for you—more love, more joy, more life. It may take time to see that, but it is true.
Hold on to Psalm 139:14 as a reminder of your value. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, crafted with care and purpose. Your existence is not an accident, and your worth is beyond measure. Let that truth sink in, even if it feels distant right now. Let it be a beacon of light in the darkness, guiding you toward the help and support you need.
Today, just take that one step. Reach out to someone you trust. Speak your truth, and let them be there for you. You don’t have to go through this alone, and you don’t have to believe the lie that you are worthless. You are worth everything, and you are loved beyond measure.
You are irreplaceable. And your life is worth living.
With Love & Support,
Dr. Monica
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